Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Closed for Summer Vacation

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I am a thinker.
A ponderer.
A muser.

I like to reflect, analyze, and then over-analyze.

I like to sit and think.

But apparently, not in the summer.
It turns out, this summer, I just like to sit.

I think about my blog all the time. I think about my online world of friends and fellow-thinkers. I think about all the drafts I've started. I think about how many days it's been since the last time I was on...

And then, well, then, I stop thinking.

I pack the beach bag and leave the house with my three favorite men.
I flip through the channels and watch the day's stage of the Tour de France yet again.
I call my friends and meet up at the local bounce house place.
I go to the gym.
I do laundry.
I eat chips and salsa.

I am very, very lazy this summer.

All the projects I had in my head in May: the two-years-worth of photos to be organized and put in boxes? The photo books to be designed and ordered back from when I was pregnant with Aidan? The closets to be purged and cleaned? The massive behind-the-sofa-spring cleaning? The steam cleaning of the boys' rooms' carpets? The every-other-day blogging?

Not one.

I feel guilty about it when I'm in bed, mainly, at the end of the day, trying not to count how many weeks are left of this no-work, no-school, no-schedules kind of life for the four of us.

There will be so little accomplished, I think.

And then, I stop thinking.
I go to sleep.
And I wake up the next morning to more of the same lackadaisical living.

And you know what?

It's nice.

For someone whose brain is always frickin' noisy, whose mind is always on hyper-speed, whose lists of to-do's are endless, it's nice to just wander a lot instead of wonder.

And on those nights when I lay in bed and think for a bit about all the things I have not accomplished this summer, I also realize that maybe this has been one of my most successful summers ever...one in which I've actually been able to Just Be.


  1. I'm glad you're able to just be! That's what summer should be about. I think a lot of us have slowed down a lot--summer kind of demands it!

  2. I LOVE this post Liz, I know that I always seem to say that but that's cos you always seem to write for me LOL!!!

    I love just being....and really don't do enough of it....but I can do it and luxuriate and appreciate it. I have friends who literally cannot do nothing, just sit down or be at the beach relaxing....it think that's all wrong..you need to be able to stop sometimes and just reflect and look around you. Everything else will still be there when we have finished being.

    Wonderful post! Happy Summer!

    PS Thanks for your message, I am going to email you :)

  3. That is my plan, when we get back from our trip...to just be and fly by the seat of my pants. Because for the last couple of summers, it has been about taking care of other people's needs, when my own stuff just got clogged up and cluttered.

    I do feel as though I have accomlished and done a lot in the last couple of weeks. And now, comes the reward. However much time is left with these precious, rambuctious guys, I will soak it up and treasure it...Give me a buzz if you will be going back to the water park in the next week...

  4. That is awesome. Just Be. Those closets will still be there this fall. I guarantee it.

  5. I think you're doing summer just as it should be done!

  6. Bravo Liz! You are doing exactly what you should be doing. And you know what? You are providing your boys with fun memories with you - instead of memories of mommy cleaning out the closet. Have a wonderful summer.

  7. J E A L O U S.

    I tell myself frequently that I won't always be living in fifth gear. I look forward to the kind of time you're describing. If you can do it, do it! Lucy's orders.

  8. I also have found myself totally slowing down this summer. Trying not to feel guilty about how Little I'm actually accomplishing. I just can't do it all... I'm so glad you're relaxing and enjoying your summer. You deserve it!

    it's also funny that last night Tim and I were talking about what we'd get as a tattoo if we ever got one and I said I'd want the words, "Just Be".

  9. Enjoy the summer!! The school year is so hectic that you need time to "JUST BE" ( I happen to like those two words very much)..Keep enjoying it!!!

  10. I keep telling myself to just enjoy it. Enjoy the fact that playing at the lake, having ice cream for dinner, and lounging by Mimi's pool is ruining my blogging/work time. I'm trying, but my boss won't let me. Someone should tell her I;m on summer BREAK which means I can't work but she should definitely still pay me! Good for you for enjoying yours. Don't feel guilty, feel lucky!

  11. I needed this post today. I've been feeling bad about not getting as much "accomplished" as I had planned...but you're right, just being is quite na accomplishment!!

  12. It's all in the perspective, isn't it.

  13. Enjoy every second, Liz. This is living that you're doing. And it's wonderful stuff.


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