Tuesday, November 19, 2019

I am a writer




I am a writer

always have been


I remember
when I was little
I did not covet
my sister's clothes
so much

it was 
her typewriter

I could not
get to it
fast
enough


Sometimes

it lies dormant
for whatever the reason
I can not
tend to it

and I think
Oh
It is done
I am good
that part of me
I've had enough
I've done enough
I'm good

Then

it comes back
it gnaws at me

I ignore it
push it away
scoff
ignore
eye roll
wait
it will recede
that feeling

but then the feeling
becomes a need
and I am
simultaneously
irritated and relieved

it's there
it won't go away

dammit

I have to write again
I am a writer
always have been

and so
I am back
begrudgingly
here I am 
unavoidable
you can only ignore
who you are
for so long





4 comments:

  1. You are a writer - it's who you are. The tug is strong and real. Write!

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    1. GIGI! You are still here, huh? Your loyalty and always-kind-words make my heart happy.

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  2. Stick with what you love! I loved to write in high school and wish I had studied it in college. Instead, business. Yuck.

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  3. I love this! You have captured that yearning.

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