Friday, September 10, 2010

There's no inspiration

I don't necessarily mean that in a bad way.

More often than not, inspiration comes to me in the form of angst.

Lately, there's just been...Life.

Life without angst is a good thing. I am not complaining. I've got it good, but I'm not exactly longing for my laptop so I can pour out my musings.

Truth be told, I'm not musing much lately.

I'm too tired.
I'm just trying to keep up.

After the Summer Of Salsa, I find myself still struggling to catch up to Reality. I feel like I'm on a perpetual treadmill: always going, going, going.

None of it is "bad:"
I have a good job with good hours.
I have an amazing husband who truly sees our life as a partnership.
I have incredibly selfless parents and in-laws who constantly pitch in with babysitting.
I have time to myself almost on a daily basis.
I have two healthy, happy kids who (mostly) follow their tightly-set daily routine.

There are no crises, currently.

It's all good.

But still, I find that I struggle with day-to-day life. I find the everyday tedious and frustrating and, well, repetitive. I sometimes think that we spend so much of our life wasting away at jobs and errands and laundry and bathing children (even if I do sorta like my job and my children are pretty damn cute when they're splashing in the tub). It's just Life. Life is busy and hectic, even when it's good and boring and drama-free.

And then I feel guilty...guilty that I struggle, that I complain, that I'm always so tired. Because I am well aware of how lucky I am, how truly blissful life is when there's nothing to write about.


  1. I think a lot of us are feeling that way right now! Just putting one foot in front of the other.

  2. I agree with TKW. I've seen this post a lot. I think the transitions of seasons are always hard. I don't know what it is, but the changing of the sun's position...or kids going back to school...or just general need of down time. But, I'm with you. I printed out the first 25 pages of my WIP to try and get back into the writing of it. :)

  3. Ugh, I definitely feel that way! Stressed and busy and over-tired but nothing to really complain about... Although I feel like whining and complaining all the time!!!

  4. Sometimes it's just like that, I think... I guess it's better to have nothing much to say because everything's fine, than the alternative? I guess? :)

  5. Finding inspiration in the everyday is difficult, yet, so simplistic and beautiful. The best memories are those that happen repetitively, the quiet moments without all the drama and anxiety, where we can just be...

    Thanks for being there this week...

  6. Just remember that old Chinese curse: "May you live in interesting times" and then be grateful you don't. Although sometimes, day to day life is repetitive and boring - as you said there is much to be grateful for in that repetitive and boring life.

  7. Of course a good, active life can be exhausting (and it's meant to be, for if you don't use your energy for your life, what are you saving it for???), but... are all these things really the things YOU WANT and not only the things YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD YOU WANT?

  8. Then it seems you have plenty to be smiling about :) Nothing bad there.

  9. Seems I am in good company. The inspiration is coming, but it wasn't in heavy doses during the summer. You'll get back into the swing of things. Enjoy this pause while it lasts.


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