Wednesday, September 16, 2015

You are ten


I remember

that quiet solitary moment in the hospital
when everyone had left

I was left
with you
in my arms
your eyes were open
you were looking at me
and I didn't really understand
but I knew there was one thing
I could tell you
for sure:
that you were a lucky baby
that you had the coolest father
the best dad
of that
only
I was sure

you had this smell

I still remember it

I have no idea what it was
why you had it
but your brother never did
and I have never smelled it since
it was not baby cologne
or baby powder
it was
simply
you

it smelled like being born
purity
clean
earth
this smell

we still talk about it
remember it
your daddy and I

it has been ten years
ten
you came into our lives

some crazy psychic once said
you were a special soul

you drive us crazy
often
and
intensely
but there is
this special bond

an awareness

that there is something
different
about
you

you
single-handedly
changed me, him
us

one decade

The baby

the one who had waited
to come when it was time
the only one who could have
filled the space
that we were not sure
even needed
filling

and I am still
not sure
we could even come close
to being worthy
of being chosen
by you

4 comments:

  1. wow. the last verse. tearjerker.

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  2. Absolutely beautiful words Liz. My son was 10 just last week, I cannot believe it!

    So happy to read a post from you , I keep you on my list & always hope you'll write something! Hope you are well Xx

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  3. Wow! He's 10! And grown so much! I still remember when I first started blogging (SIX years ago) and found your site and he was so cute and small. What a beautiful love note to your boy.

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  4. Happy Birthday Ben! Or should I say Ben Ben ;0)
    Beautiful poem my friend. [Mine rhymed a little more though -- Ha!]
    BTW, I agree with the psychic, a truly special soul.
    :)
    p.s. You are admirable parents and both of your boys (& friends/fam) are so lucky to have you.
    Love you,
    Kathy

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